I think a lot about the woman I want to be. Qualities I hope to have, lessons I hope I teach through life long example. The woman I want to be is a lot less awkward. Better with words. Better at saying exactly what she means. She is certainly less flawed... But isn't perfect and wouldn't expect others to be. She says damn under her breath and loves sugar and eats ice cream for dinner. She spends too much time in the sun and has dreams about shopping. She is strong and capable and has a lot more energy than i do. But she is willing to have the whole house a mess as long as it means every one had fun.
But mostly she teaches her girls to float like a butterfly and sting like a bee. That meekness isnt weakness. She teaches them that Audrey knew what she was talking about when she said that "the happiest girls are the prettiest girls" and that bodies are to be appreciated and not picked at. That nurturing is the greatest and most powerful thing a woman can do in his world.
She teaches her boys that romance should be their first language. That men can and should cry occasionally and can and should show affection daily. That if they work hard and are respectful than they have already made me proud. That family comes first always.
I know shes sorta sitting inside me trying to show her face. Maybe 10 more years. Maybe 50. But I refuse to die before she is me.
Oh and ps... In my head she wears dresses and high heels, but I'm sure that's just because on my favorite days thats what I want to wear.