I am trying to remember to live in the now. To "be in the moment" like my mum (the U means my english mom) always says. I know I know. Patience is a virtue... I unfortunately do not posses.
I am sucking at it. Its a moment to moment struggle. Today I was ok at it- decided to just enjoy general conference and take a walk. Until it started snowing and I had to put lolli inside chris' coat while we ran home. And then there I was... waiting to get out of utah.
I honestly think I would feel better if we just had our summer plans finalized. I leave for vegas on my birthday (april 15th... tax day! super fun huh??) and spend a week in vegas going to the doc (a whole different story) and then chris will drive down a week later after finals and we fly out to england the next day- the 23rd. We are in england for 2 weeks and chris flies to new york and then lolli and I follow him a week later. But here is the catch- we have no where to follow him to! We have found quite a few apartments he could live in alone but none for all 3 of us. Apparently people in new york prefer tenants without babies.... we've tried every resource we know of... and are beginning to think we should take this as a sign I shouldnt come.
If all else fails I fly to new york a week after chris- visit him for a bit and then fly to vegas for the summer. Work out with my mom. Have play dates with my friend Britter. Spend time with my soon to come nephew Finn. Lay by the pool and get a tan. So I know I shouldnt be stressing because that sounds like a fun plan right? There is just the minor detail that I wouldnt see my husband for 1/3 of a year. no big........
There is so much irony in our wedding song.... "i've been waitin all of my life for you...."