Got home and I was already bushed from a 6 hour drive there and back and taking care of the baby solo since chris had to stay in utah and work. And then Lorelai got a cold.
I vow to wash my hands like a mad woman. I vow to limit taking lorelai out of the house as much as possible. I vow to avoid sick people as if they have leprosy.
I CANNOT DO THIS AGAIN THIS SEASON.
I seriously do not think I could be more tired. I do not think I could be in more pain (oops did I mention I AM SICK TOO????) I am beyond my point of frustration or depression. I am too tired to do anything but feed and sleep, feed and sleep. Poor chris may have slept 5 hours last night (oh and I forgot to mention that CHRIS IS SICK TOO.) Lorelai cried and cried and wouldnt settle and even though he was in bed and I was the one rocking her- you cant sleep through my lollis cry. So he got up at six and went to work and school anyway, knowing he wouldnt come home for more than 12 hours minimum.
Now I know why everybody jokes about how rough their life was starting out. "I had to walk uphill in the snow both ways and we didnt eat anything but cabbage soup and my children never slept through the night until they were 1." Because some days it is so hard that if you dont laugh, you may just cry.
But really. It could be worse. So much worse. So tonight I say a prayer of thanks thats its not strep. That we are all still alive. That we have food to eat and a place to sleep that is warm and safe. And then I am going to snuggle my husband and laugh at the fact that I know I am not getting any sleep tonight. Laugh at the fact that everytime lolli settles down into sleep she chokes on her snot and starts crying again.... hahaha I am laughing right now. Its all good. Bring it on.
Note to self: next time you have a baby have family close by who can help when this kind of stuff happens.
2nd note to self: convince a family member to move with you when you go to new york.
and lets throw a ps in there as well. PS those nose sucker things are disgusting... and amazing. I watched my sister use it the experienced mom way and clear her nose in like 3 seconds. Now if only we lived close enough for her to do that right now.