Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Sunday, November 28, 2010

my first year cooking thanksgiving dinner...

I have always taken thanksgiving preparation for granted. I would come home assuming there would be food for me to pig out on, and then spend the rest of the day lounging about on the couch talking to my sisters while the boys watched tv. So this year I decided to give my mom a break and give cooking a try. Chris wasnt nervous because my cooking skills have improved dramatically in the last 2 years of marriage but I was still nervous. It seemed to be such a daunting task. So I made a plan:

1. Go grocery shopping as SOON as I got there on tuesday.
2. Brine turkey over night so it is ready for the next day.
3. Make Becca in charge of the rolls. I feel like homemade rolls are a thanksgiving all by themselves and Beccas are to die for. Win-win.
4. Wake up thanksgiving morning and get to work. Chop all veggies in preparation. Make all sides ready for the oven. Cut potatoes and soak in water ready to boil for mash. Make deserts before hand so I dont have to worry about anything after dinner.
5. Set and decorate table. I used my nieces help for that. We made a turkey for each person by tracing her hand and decorating it like so:

All in all it was far less stressful than I imagined. And my siblings all pitched in to get the job done. David cut up the squash into cubes which is actually MUCH harder than I expected. Matt took out trash about 6 times haha. Emily helped me clean the turkey.... yikes... and Marie entertained Lolli.

I made a turkey, a ham, mash potato, (I made my mom make the gravy since hers is GOOD), cornbread and sausage stuffing, green been casserole, carmelized butternut squash, and pumpkin mousse. My mom had a TON of sweet potatoes but nobody wanted them the traditional way so I made sweet potato fries and chicken burgers the day before. I think that really got me in the mood to pig out. YUMM.

I think you really have to have 2 ovens to pull it off (my mom does and it still seemed like we needed another). I will keep that in mind for my future home. And I think that next year I will make cheesecake instead... I was craving it all weekend. What is a good pig out without cheesecake??

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Family pictures

My mom-in-law needed an updated famdambamily picture for her christmas newsletter. I dont think we will be sending out christmas cards this year (SO much going on) so here is my official Merry Christmas (just a few weeks early haha) and our 1950s pictures!

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Saturday, November 6, 2010

6 months!!

I can't believe she is 6 months old. My baby is QUICKLY growing out of her babiness. In the last month she has developed SO MUCH personality. She reacts to things she didnt before- seems so much more aware. Im loving hanging out with her! She is so sassy. She makes the most grown up noises and facial expressions. You always know whats on her mind. She laughs at everything- especially other people's laughs. She loves to read books. Her favorite thing to play with is currently her plush tree house with all of the stuffed animals inside. She is particularly fond of the stuffed grasshopper. She likes to be scared- jump out and yell boo and she will giggle like crazy. I love this little girl so much it hurts. She is my everything. Happy 1/2 birthday Lorelai!

Little lolli in her cloth diaper. As soon as I took the tutu off she started to get shy and cover her belly with her hands. Thats right L! Modest is hottest. Some other mile markers:
-She can roll all over the place and scoot a little. Using this method she can get from one side of the room to the other in 10 seconds. SCARY.
-She can feed herself. She does this with rice puffs and freeze dried yogurt bites.
-She loves all kinds of food- her favorite is still plain rice cereal. The only thing she has ever refused is formula. She will suck on a lemon but she wont let me mix one scoop of formula into her rice. And she will not take a bottle. Im really hoping she has gained weight at her 6 month check up because if she hasnt she may have to go to formula. That would make for an interesting few days. But she looks pretty chunky in the pics right? keepin my fingers crossed.
-She is a great sleeper/napper and can put herself to sleep. She still loves to be swaddled which I am grateful for since the nights are so cold!
-She has a goofy laugh. I need to post a video of me tickling her. She goes crazy.


Friday, November 5, 2010

can you guess it?

Last weekend we got to hang out with 2 of our favorite people- Betina and Dave- and we played my favorite game in all the world- cranium- making it a highly entertaining night. Can You guess what chris is trying to be? hint: its an event.

The answer is said by Tina at the end of the video in case you didnt catch it :)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Cloth diapers

First things first, I will let you know that the idea of this originally made me want to vomit. I could be quoted saying things like "That seems like a lot of work elbow deep in poop." or "Would you use a reusable tampon? NO. So why would I use reusable diapers?"

But alas, your budget can change your mind about just about anything. I love the saying that a penny saved is a penny earned. Right now I dont earn any actual money so I feel like the fact that I cook and we always eat in, I coupon clip, and now use cloth diapers= the way I earn money.

2 things helped me to make the transition. The first was a simple conversation on facebook where a mom who uses them was raving about how awesome they are and how they have changed a ton since our moms were using them. The second was that I use organic cotton breast pads. I always found the disposable ones uncomfortable, expensive and I was constantly running out! I have saved 20 bucks a month (at least) using them and so far that= 100 (after subtracting the purchase price). And I will be using them for 6 more months (I plan to breastfeed until she is 1) and will prob get to use them on my next kid. So I thought... Maybe I will just do some research about these cloth diapers to make sure it is as gross as I think it is.

I was wrong. Sure- you will see poop. But only when you are wiping it off your kid's butt just like a disposable! These are not the crappy leaky stained diapers of years long ago. No more pins, no more nonsense. Since I have used them I havent had one leak. My little one has had diarrhea, has slept in one for 12 hours, you name it- these suckers can handle it. Oh and it got rid of her diaper rash!!

There are about 60 different brands and then there are like 60 different kinds within the brands. I researched for about 40 hours... I kid you not. And then ended up contacting that first mom who raved about them. I bought the bumgenius pocket one size diapers with hook and loops. Let me explain the lingo:

-Bumgenius is the brand. They are awesome, fairly priced, and come in way cute colors.
-Pocket means that you insert a pad into them that absorbs all the... mess. :) there are prefolds (more like the ones our mommas used) and all in ones. The all in ones are the most like disposables but I decided against them since they take a LONG time to dry (since its all one piece sewn together) and you have to use a new one each diaper change whereas with pockets if its just wet you can just change out the pad.
-One size means they fit from 7-35 lbs. Yes friends that means they will fit from birth to potty training saving you THOUSANDS of dollars. You can buy them sized but to me this is just a waste of money. The one size has ways to adjust it so it fits great.
-Hook and loops just basically means part of it is velcro. Originally I wanted to buy the ones with all snaps because I figured they would last longer but i soon realized that a squirming child will not wait for you to snap everything in the right place- velcro is just more functional. And the velcro is more heavy duty then you expect- I see it lasting a long time.

When you actually use them.....
Changing her diaper isnt really that different. I change it in the bathroom so I have easy access to everything i need. If its solid- plop it in the toilet, if its not-it can be washed out in the washing machine. No need to rinse and get your hands all mucked up. "if its not ploppable, its washable" haha. I use cotton wipes too so that I can just put the whole thing in the pail. Then when it comes time to wash I just dump all the diapers in the wash. You do a prewash in cold to get the .... stuff... out, then a full wash in hot. You can do an additional rinse in cold but I havent needed to. They dont stain and actually get bleached by the sun if you line dry them (which I currently dont since I dont have a backyard and I still havent had to worry about stains). You have to use the free and clear detergent but its about the same price as anything else if not cheaper (we were using dreft and her sensitive skin actually does better on this stuff). It makes sense- no chemicals,dyes,fragrances, etc. I literally havent found a con to it yet.

When we are on the go I just put them in a ziplock bag. There are the super cute bags called wetbags specifically made for it but come on- the point of this was to save money. There are also special bags to line the diaper pail with. Again... I feel its unnecessary. I have 12 which means I wash every day. She uses 8-10 a day so I have time to wash them before she runs out. If I didnt have a washing machine in my apartment, or if I wasn't a full time mommy I would get more for sure.

The sites I use:
I like this site because it comes with a 30 day money back guarantee- EVEN if you have used them and washed them!!
I like this site because they have a little more selection, and also because they sell the bumgenius 3.0. Bumgenius came out with a 4.0, which of course made the 3.0 dirt cheap. but they are super hard to find. That link takes you to the 3.0s but they only have them in white- dont worry- they really wont stain. The outside is made of polyester so it is waterproof and stain proof.

Ok one last thing... I wonder if anyone is even still reading. haha. I promise this will save you a lot of money. I bought my entire set (12 diapers, 24 pads, wipes and everything) for 180. That is about what i spent in 3 months of disposables. If you have any questions I would be happy to answer them!!


oops one last thing. If you order over 100 bucks on cottonbabies right now, put a pair of the baby leg warmers in your cart and enter in the coupon code FREEBABYLEGS and they are free! :) I got a super cute polka dot pair. The end.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

My baby tips

This is going to be sort of random but I have had a couple of people ask me recently for my baby must haves or the stuff that I had to learn the hard way so here it goes.

My tips... what worked for me:
1. they give you like a TON of newborn diapers at the hospital as well as a nasal aspirator and some formula so we didnt buy any of that. Take everything in your room (just ask a nurse what is yours) because they charge you for it regardless of whether you take it or not. And bring your husbands sweatpants to wear home. I brought my biggest pair and thanks to swelling there was no way i was fitting into those.
2. The first night you bring baby home- you are actually supposed to sleep. I literally stayed awake that entire night listening to her breathing, afraid if I slept she would die. YOU CANT PREVENT SIDS. If your baby is sleeping on their back, dressed properly etc, go to sleep. Yes I know its crazy but you just have to say a prayer and trust they will be ok.
3. Ok- those who are sensitive move to number 4. Keep a bucket in your room. This may not be true for everyone- but I peed my pants like 3 times in the 10 days post baby. I would get up at like 3 am and be rocking her and pee my pants- no control. We finally learned our lesson and I would just stand in the bucket. Gross and true.
4.BUT dont be scared. It took about 10 days and all my swelling was gone, my episiotomy was barely noticable, I had lost all but a few lbs of the baby weight... I basically felt normal again apart from being really tired.
5. Get an IUD. haha I LOVE MINE. no periods. no remembering. and you can have one while nursing! I got the mirena that lasts 5 years but i will have it out before then for sure.
6. Find a system that works for you and your baby. I use the EASY method (eat, activity, sleep, your time) because I found that nursing lorelai to sleep only meant she couldnt fall asleep unless she nursed. But I couldnt handle the cry it out methods either... I have just put lorelai down awake but drowsy from day one and she learned how to go to sleep herself. Just research a few methods and decide what works for you.
7. Exchange clothes for bigger sizes. I got a LOT of newborn and 0-3 month clothes at my shower (thank you!!) but there was no way she was going to wear all of it before she grew out of it- a lot of stores will let you exchange the exact outfit for just a bigger size even with no reciept.
8. Breastfeeding is hard. I wish someone had told me that (they probably did and I didnt listen) before so that I wouldnt have felt like a failure. It is hard starting out. It is uncomfortable to breastfeed in public. It is hard to find church outfits that you can breast feed easily in, it is awkward under a hooter hider. It hurts and takes patience. BUT it is awesome and special and so much easier than bottles (just my opinion) once you get it all worked out.
9. Find someone to come stay with you who wont give you non stop advice- who will simply clean your house and do your laundry and grocery shop and cook for you. Thanks german mom. :)
10. sing hymns... all day long. This kept me focused on being calm and happy instead of sad or frustrated. You are doing better than you think It is crazy sometimes when I think about all the sleep I lost and all the times I was confused or downhearted and a prayer has picked me up and helped me go on with my day. I sing I need Thee Every Hour to lorelai almost every day and it has brought me to tears more than once... motherhood is hard. But most things in life that are rewarding are really hard right?

Baby must haves:
First of all- I didnt need as much as I thought I did. TRULY- the crazy amounts of accessories and things to "make life a little easier" could put you in debt for years.
1. I liked having a Boppi to use for breastfeeding and to sit her in... she still uses it as a back rest occasionally. And I would recommend getting a cover for it so you can just wash the cover when baby spits up instead of the whole pillow.
2. I used and still occasionally use breast shields. The lactation specialist gave me one in the hospital to help her latch on and it makes it way less painful.
3. I recommend getting at least 2 nursing bras... one sports bra type that is super comfy and stretchy for when your boobs are huge and uncomfortable and one with underwire and all that for when they normalize.
4. A swing. Lolli isnt a huge fan of it now but every once in a while when she is sick I put her in it and she goes to sleep... i would be up all night rocking her without it.
5. A Pack n play. If you are going to travel- get your kid used to sleeping in it every once in a while from the beginning or they will not sleep in it at all later... had to learn that the hard way.
6. Rubber bibs. Once baby starts eating, you will be using a cloth bib for every meal which means like 5 a day. And they stain. CRAZY. So we got 2 rubber bibs for like 7 bucks and just rinse them off after meals. you can even put them in the dishwasher.
7. an inexpensive hand pump. When lolli gets sick she tends to stop wanting to nurse. This leads to rock hard painful boobs. I pump and freeze the milk. I also used it at the beginning to try to increase my milk production.
8. Infant tylenol. The first time your baby cries for hours and you think she has an ear infection is not the time to go to the store. I am so glad I had this on hand.
9. Washable cotton breast pads. More comfortable, cheaper, and no midnight store runs. I bought 2 boxes of 6 and have been using them for 6 months and will prob even get to use them with my next kid.
10. And my last thing... cloth diapers. oh my. yes I said it. I will post a blog ALL about them later but if you are on a budget- they are the way to go FOR SURE.

Sunday, October 31, 2010


Lolli has no hair. Just a little blonde fuzz. But randomly she has one HAIR that is super long that we believe she has kept since birth. You can see it in the above picture... the faint line. It is about an inch long. We just cant cut it- it makes us laugh too hard and it is so Lolli. She likes to do everything just a little bit on the odd side.

Oh and we start her on medication soon to make her hemangioma go away. It made me a little nervous giving her medicine at only 6 months but the risk of her bumping it and bleeding for ages has gotten too high... she is a wiggle worm these days. It will be strange to see her without it.


Saturday, October 30, 2010

all hallows eve

I have like 500 baby food jars that I am sure will come in handy for something someday haha... so we painted some to use at candle holders.

I bet you can guess whose is whose... But just in case... mine is the cupcake and chris' is the weird Hannibal/asian/modern not-quite-sure-what-it-is pumpkin.

PS During the holidays but mostly Halloween I play a little game. We all know how to spell pumpkin right? well actually- no. Count how many times people misspell it. I cannot say I am not guilty of the error myself... I am pretty sure I have done "punkin" "pumkin" "punpkin". But seriously I have counted like 20 today. Tis the season!! :)

Thursday, October 28, 2010

I think its funny...

My favorite time of the day is bed time... but not because of the sleep- because of the crazy conversations chris and I ALWAYS have right before bed. Sometimes they are giggle and fall asleep funny... but sometimes they are stifle your laugh so you dont wake the baby pee your pants funny. Last night was one of my favorites.

Oh and you'll need to know that chris and I spent our honeymoon on a beach in Australia in a city named Cronulla...

Katie "I miss being relaxed. I feel like I am anxious all the time. I just want to go on vacation and zone out for a day. That idea of freedom from stress, that makes me think of cronulla."

Chris"yeah thats the second thing I think of when I think of cronulla."

K "whats the first?"

C"what do you mean?"

K "well you said thats the SECOND thing you think of, whats the first?"

C "I think of cronulla, then I think of being relaxed."

I begin to laugh as I realize that chris isnt kidding and he doesnt have anything he thinks of before being relaxed...

K "that saying goes, when I think of cronulla the first thing I think of is...."

C "that doesnt make any sense. When I think of cronulla the first thing I think is- oh cronulla. the second thing I think of is being relaxed."

Again I am laughing hysterically. I try to explain to him again that the expression is "when i think of cronulla (so you have therefore already thought of it) the first thing i think of is (as in the first thought after this)..."

C "That isnt politically correct."

Again I am laughing hysterically. This time too loud and chris begins to stifle my laughs with his hand and say "shhh" between laughs.

K "honey this has nothing to do with political correctness. That isnt how you use that expression either."

He lies in bed a little confused and a little doubtful while I lean over and get my phone. I start typing and he looks over to see who I am texting. He sees that I am making a note so that I remember to blog about this conversation.

C "I dont even care because no one will think its funny."

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

baby girls

Sometimes I think about high school and how hard it can be... trying to fit in and yet not sacrifice your own personality in the process. Finding out someone doesnt like you or said something mean about you. And I had a fairly easy time of it with tons of lds friends. But I wouldnt go back for anything. I worry about lorelai... about how sick the world will be then. Good thing I have a while to prepare her. :)

This song makes me cry. I love my baby girl. If you had a baby the same age... please tell them to be nice to her. Ill do the same for you.

Monday, October 25, 2010

lemon juice

Trying lemon juice:

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

awkward AND funny

When your baby farts loudly in the elevator and people are left wondering if it was really her.

The day after you get married and everyone asks about your night. "well I lost my virginity and then we ordered room service..."

When you look at someone in the other lane on the freeway and they are picking their nose. I always make eye contact. If you are picking- just keep your eyes forward.

When you make a comment like "Yeah we almost named our kid Kimball, but then we thought about how cheesy utah that is." and they reply "This is our son Moroni."

When you see someone at Costco and you are like... I know them... where do I know them from?? And then you realize that they go to the Gynecologist you worked for.

Women who poop during labor. I realize this one isnt fair... Not making fun of you- just the situation.

When you have to breastfeed somewhere uncomfortable... like jimmie johns... and there are two 17 year old boys staring at you. I have a hooter hider on. You cant see my boobs. But the fact that you know they are out underneath and therefore must stare is weird.

When you post about a bunch of things that are awkward and then someone says "that isnt awkward I do that all the time." ................. AWKWARD.


Tuesday, October 19, 2010

i hate cars

They try to make it look cool. But its evil.

Today I am depressed/frustrated/stressed/enraged.

Today I took my car in because I have 3 problems. 1. the switch that makes the air change from blowing on your face to your feet or defrosting your window no longer works. Always blows on your face. 2. the window on the drivers side sometimes decides to not go up. The motor needs to be replaced. 3. The check engine light is on. They would like me to pay $540 for the first 2 problems... and then they will "look into" the last problem. Last time they did that it cost me over $500 to find out a part that cost $8 needed to be replaced.

And I just recently had my front rotors turned, got new brake pads on front and back, and had to get new drums. To the tune of $550.

So as you can probably guess, I am just a little disgruntled.

I think the place I go to sees a 16 year old girl with a baby (lets be honest I am lucky if they guess 18) and they mess me over as hard as physically possible.

I will admit this is my first and only car. I have had this thing since I was 15... it is now 8 years old. I didnt know what I was doing when I picked out my car... honda, chevy, ford... ??? All I saw was red (which I HATE now by the way) and I was sold. Chris and I have spent at least 3 thousand bucks repairing this thing in just the last 2 years. I am not talking oil changes- I am talking the speedometer broke, I have replaced the motor for the window on the other side, the fuel pump needed to be replaced..... ETC. I dont believe I have ever hated an object as much as this car.

I am thinking about getting an apartment near the hospital so I can just get rid of it. Chris can bike or walk to campus and if any emergency happens I will just run to the hospital. I can ride the bus... did it a lot when I was younger. Why not? No more repairs, no more car insurance, no more anxiety every time something shudders or makes a noise or the check engine light comes on. No more worrying about a car accident. No possibility of tickets... wow this list goes on and on. There are only 2 cons. I would HATE grocery shopping. And I would never see my family again.

Fine. Car- I would like you to know that I hate you. I feel you are high maintenance and you have lowered my expectations of vehicles in general. You are a disappointment to your kind. But you are paid off and I cant afford to make payments on something new so I will keep you for now. Its possible i will stop fixing you. I may just let you run yourself into the ground. But I will keep you. PS does anybody feel like totaling my car? you are welcome to it.

Monday, October 18, 2010

brits aren't cowboys

We had a stake activity that was western themed. Chili cook off, horse shoes, lots of food and this fun little photo station. I was obviously stoked. Got out my cowboys boots, my belt with the big buckle, my plaid shirt, my hat... I am american. OF COURSE i had the whole get-up on hand. Chris had nothing. It took me about an hour of convincing to get chris to even dress up. I told him he was more likely to get made fun of if he didnt dress up than if he did. (I kid you not on every 4th of july weekend when we sing America the beautiful in church people stare at him and laugh waiting for a reaction. He promptly smiles and rolls his eyes.) I told him that he loves his american wife and daughter and that he wouldnt be here if he didnt love this country. All true. So he agreed. He had to borrow a hat from the neighbor, he wore flip flops and one of his white button ups.... AND LOOKED RIDICULOUS.

I totally ate it up. Tried to get him to say yee-hah and the whole thing. There were actual ranchers and cowboys there in spurs and chaps and he was like "wow awesome costume" and they just looked at him blankly. Needless to say I was thoroughly entertained. This picture sums it up for me. Whats funny is he really just looks like indiana jones....

I always thought I'd be a cowgirl. I have pictures of me as a 2 year old in a diaper and cowgirl boots. But Lorelai will not grow up on a ranch- more likely in the middle of brooklyn (or hopefully manhattan one day). Dont worry though- she will still know how to ride a horse and she WILL own cowgirl boots. Mark my words.


Friday, October 15, 2010

different paths, the same direction

I miss these girls. Hadnt seen them in so long I can even remember. love you.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

vegas, snot, and laughter.

I have been on a temporary hiatus from blogging. I went to Vegas and saw my fam-dam-bamily and a bunch of old friends. Saw one of my besties get married to her high school sweet heart. Got my hair did by another bestie (for the cost of the color!! Girl you rock my socks off). Got the best set of hand me down clothes I have ever received from my sister. Got my car fixed so it doesn't shake when I brake anymore... a little nerve wracking... thanks mom. All in all an amazing trip.

Got home and I was already bushed from a 6 hour drive there and back and taking care of the baby solo since chris had to stay in utah and work. And then Lorelai got a cold.

pause. breath....

I vow to wash my hands like a mad woman. I vow to limit taking lorelai out of the house as much as possible. I vow to avoid sick people as if they have leprosy.


I seriously do not think I could be more tired. I do not think I could be in more pain (oops did I mention I AM SICK TOO????) I am beyond my point of frustration or depression. I am too tired to do anything but feed and sleep, feed and sleep. Poor chris may have slept 5 hours last night (oh and I forgot to mention that CHRIS IS SICK TOO.) Lorelai cried and cried and wouldnt settle and even though he was in bed and I was the one rocking her- you cant sleep through my lollis cry. So he got up at six and went to work and school anyway, knowing he wouldnt come home for more than 12 hours minimum.

Now I know why everybody jokes about how rough their life was starting out. "I had to walk uphill in the snow both ways and we didnt eat anything but cabbage soup and my children never slept through the night until they were 1." Because some days it is so hard that if you dont laugh, you may just cry.

But really. It could be worse. So much worse. So tonight I say a prayer of thanks thats its not strep. That we are all still alive. That we have food to eat and a place to sleep that is warm and safe. And then I am going to snuggle my husband and laugh at the fact that I know I am not getting any sleep tonight. Laugh at the fact that everytime lolli settles down into sleep she chokes on her snot and starts crying again.... hahaha I am laughing right now. Its all good. Bring it on.

Note to self: next time you have a baby have family close by who can help when this kind of stuff happens.
2nd note to self: convince a family member to move with you when you go to new york.

and lets throw a ps in there as well. PS those nose sucker things are disgusting... and amazing. I watched my sister use it the experienced mom way and clear her nose in like 3 seconds. Now if only we lived close enough for her to do that right now.

Monday, October 4, 2010

My dream urban apartment

My friend Chelsea Allred gave me the tip to check out urban outfitters for apartment stuff... I havent even thought about urban since I moved to utah and I was missing out! thanks cutie girl!

If I won a shopping spree at urban outfitters:

*** drooling and snoring*** stretchhhhhh....... "oh no it was just a dream"

wish list

I realize it is a little early for a Christmas wish list but as you have probably guessed- I like to get things done and I like lists.

Things I want:


2. a sewing machine
3. someone to do my hair every 2-3 months
4. oops i bought number 4. Its a workout system. It is normally like 80 but I got it on ebay for 38 bucks with shipping and everything. From hong kong. haha we shall see how that works out. I promise to work out with it from home- I NEED the exercise. I am inspired. too bad it wont get here for 28-35 business days.
5. whatever my family decides to get me.

The end. Wait that was a horrible list. I cant really think of anything else I want tho... well...

more than anything what a want right now is a job i can do from home or bring lolli to. Please Santa!! make it happen!!!

Oh Lorelai wants to make a wish list too:
1. to see all my grandparents
2. to try pumpkin pie and whipped cream
3. a vintage peacoat this this one:

Sunday, October 3, 2010


They say you love people for their details. I agree. Although I am not sure who "they" are and maybe "they" didnt even say it but I think it's true.

Chris' hilarious quirks:
1 He loves pens and stationary. Art supplies. Got excited to by a rubber mat that you could cut on.
2 He gets more english around english people. I thought this was strange until I realized I get more jensen around my sisters. More Las Vegan at UNLV games.
3 He literally cannot put his towel away. He must use it and drop it wet on our bed or the floor. I put it away every single day. I dont even mind... Makes me laugh.
4 Orange cheese burns his throat- he is allergic. BUT white cheese is fine. I honestly thought he was kidding at first but its no joke. And raw carrots burn but if they are cooked they are fine. I cannot find a reason.
5. He loves to make out and cuddle. Awesome!!
6.He thinks the weirdest stuff is funny. Seriously I watch it and understand like 1/4 of it... and dont laugh once. But he has also introduced me to some stuff that makes me laugh so hard I pee my pants like this:

Friday, October 1, 2010

Dont should on yourself.

Every once in a while I do what my mom calls "shoulding on myself".

I should have graduated high school early. I should have gone to BYU right out of high school. I should have gone to cosmetology school. I should have finished my degree before I got married. I should have finished my degree before I had a baby. I should have saved more money. I should have gone on a mission etc etc...

But I didnt. And I dont know why I do this. My wedding day was perfect for me- right time, right person, right place (the temple). I didnt graduate early- and my senior year taught me a lot of lessons I wouldnt trade. I didnt wait to have a baby so that I could finish my degree. And Lorelai is literally the joy of my life. She is my everything. She is what makes me smile when I wake up. Well her and Chris :). haha. Sure a mission would have been awesome but I get to teach my daughter the gospel everyday. And I can be a member missionary.

I think I do this because I think that somehow I could do whatever I "should" have done- and still have what I have now. But I wouldnt. The timing of meeting chris was so delicate that if it had been weeks before or weeks after it wouldnt have happened. If i hadnt have been working in an OBGYN office (instead of going to school) I wouldnt have found out about my endometriosis when I did. I wouldnt have had my amazing doctor to do my surgery and deliver my baby. And I had been offered a higher paying job the day before my interview with that office, but I felt the spirit tell me I was supposed to take the OBGYN job.

So I am making it a goal to stop shoulding. Because my life has been SO OBVIOUSLY directed. I am exactly where I need and want to be. I am so grateful for the simple blessings I have. Being in a happy and affectionate marriage feels so good its insane. And I am grateful for the blessing of being able to get pregnant. That is huge. Working in that OBGYN office taught me to never take that lightly- the pain of the inability to get pregnant or miscarrying must be so overwhelming. I cannot even understand it fully since I havent been there- but there have been a couple of times I came home from work and cried. Patients who were so excited, so hopeful. Breaks my heart. So I am grateful beyond belief for Lorelai. And the abiltity to be sealed to her. She is mine and I am hers no matter what.

After listening to the Relief Society broadcast I have thought so much about the fact that I am an example to Lorelai and I need to be better for both of us. So instead of shouldas... which dont change anything... I am making goals. I put them on my bathroom mirror with dry erase marker so chris can see them and hold me accountable. Hardest one so far? Cutting "crap", "freaking" and "shoulda" out of my vocabulary.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Moroccan Chicken

My sis-in-law Dixie gave me the fabulous idea of trying moroccan food. I decided to try something very safe (and probably not all that authentic haha) first so this is definitely a beginner dish. I changed the recipe just a little... used chicken breast since thats what we had. And I am not a huge fan of roasted potatoes... so I made mash. Chris liked it so I think next time we will get a little more adventurous.

1 teaspoon ground allspice
1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon ground cumin
1/2 teaspoon sweet paprika
1/4 teaspoon cayenne
2 tablespoons olive oil, plus more for greasing pan
8 chicken drumsticks (1 3/4 pounds)
1 one-pound package oven fries (wedge shaped cut potatoes; preferably Alexa brand)

Preheat oven to 450°F with rack in middle. Line a large (4 sided) baking sheet with foil and oil foil.
Mix together spices with 1 teaspoon salt and 1/2 teaspoon pepper in a bowl, then whisk in oil. Add chicken and coat well with mixture. Arrange on baking sheet with potatoes in a single layer.
Roast until chicken and potatoes are cooked through, 25 to 30 minutes.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

pieces of home

just a couple pics of our apartment. We are in continual progression of making it "done". It will never be done because I like projects too much.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

I think its funny....

So I know that I need to get more pictures on here... lets be real sometimes you just open someone's blog, look at the pictures and leave without reading a word. And by you I mean me. Soon I promise. I have started literally 5 new DIY projects... but I haven't finished a single one yet! oops... I get too excited and start the next one before I finish the first. Anyway another blog post with no pictures... but its on my mind.

I think its funny:
that I get so impatient when the mac takes more than 3 seconds to load a new web page when I can distinctly remember using a pc on dial-up when i would click on something and start my laundry because I knew it was going to be a while.

when people take pictures of themselves shirtless/in a bikini and use it as their profile picture on facebook... like really??

that sometimes I turn on cat in the hat when lorelai is really fussy... but lets be honest I am watching it not her.

A day in the life...

6:15 alarm goes off- chris has learned to wake up to it on his own but I haven't learned to sleep through it. Chris gets in the shower and I lay awake for 1/2 hour.
6:45 Chris comes in and we say a prayer, he leaves for school/work.
7:00 lolli wakes up- I feed her. She is too sleepy to eat so I have to constantly stroke her cheek to get a full feeding in. We cuddle... she gets bored and mad that I am crowding her space.
7:30 I pull myself out of bed and put her on a blanket on the floor in the front room. I hang up chris' wet towel which is inevitably on the floor, clean up whatever mess chris made by getting ready in the bathroom, put any dishes in the dishwasher and start a load of laundry.
7:50 Play with lolli... I look like an idiot and she loves it. I maybe eat some cereal or toast. Maybe we watch cat in the hat for 15 minutes.
8:10 Lolli start to whimper and whine- time for her first nap. Swaddle her up, bink in the mouth and rock her until she isn't crying anymore. Rock her a little longer just because i love it when she is peaceful and she only really cuddles when shes sleepy. Put her in her crib.
8:20 Lolli is asleep- should I get in the shower or facebook stalk and blog. yeah ALWAYS the latter.
9:00 lolli wakes up. Feed her again. Read a book, sing wheels on the bus and if you're happy and you know it like five hundred times. She giggles and it makes me feel like I am the coolest person alive.
(this part of my day goes by so fast. from 9-11 I am not even sure what really happens. The only thing I can be sure of is that I feed her the big girl food. Currently loving mangoes so much her eyes light up.)
11:00 lolli start to whine- time for another nap. Always the same routine- swaddle, bink, sing (stille nacht... german silent night... starting to get pumped for christmas) and rock until she is quiet, put her down.
11:15 lolli is sleeping... time to shower. I make myself feel bad like everyday that I am showering at 11 but if its routine then I shouldn't feel bad right?????
11:30 showered and feeling great. Id like to say the next part is blowdry my hair and put on makeup but im trying to be truthful here. Get on the comp or more cleaning. craft projects... what ever.
1:30 lolli wakes up. It is this instant I realize I forgot to eat lunch. feed lolli. go eat a pb&j. More singing/nonsense.

ok the rest of my day gets really repetitive. Lorelai likes it that way.

6:30 start to make dinner. This is my time to relax. Generally Lolli is on the floor in the kitchen eating her hands and laughing at me as I try to cook food in 3 different pans and entertain her all at the same time.
7:00 Chris gets home... maybe. hopefully. we eat. talk about our day, use the itouch to read a chapter of scriptures together. Lorelai starts to fuss so we only read 1/2. Put lolli to bed while chris starts homework.
7:45 back on the internet, make chris a lunch if we don't have leftovers from dinner, bake cookies if i am craving.
8:30 lolli wakes up. feed her. Entertain lolli while chris is still doing homework... can you tell this semester is making me want to cry?
10:00 chris puts lolli to bed. We get in bed and talk for a few minutes, have a good cuddle. This is about all the time I get with him these days. Prayer. Bed.


Saturday, September 18, 2010

Video finally!

I haven't had any video of Lorelai up here in a while since Chris has been taking the mac to school and it takes about 16 hours on the toshiba. So I thought it was time for an update of some of our recent videos. Enjoy :)

I tried to capture her new rolling habits but she got her arm caught. Oh well you get the point. Hope that gave you your lolli fix... for those of you who have one.


Friday, September 17, 2010

Rolling stone

Little Lolli loves to roll around these days. She has been doing it for a while but only recently she has figured out how to get from back to belly and back again. She thinks that she is so cool when she does it... looks up at me every time like she wants me to clap... so I do. :)

She also gets so bored with the camera/flip. Every time I get it out I get about 4 pictures and then she gives me this face...

I love that crazy little girl and her big personality so much.


Tuesday, September 14, 2010


Thinking a lot today about how lucky I am. Just to be alive. To be married and in love. To have a healthy baby.

Chris' friend Dane was recently swimming in the lake and got hit by a boat. The boat ripped his abdomen and leg to shreds and he nearly died. Without the spirit and the will of god he WOULD have died. It gives me chills to think about- brings tears to my eyes. His wife, watching him get hit, seeing the water fill with blood. I cannot imagine. I hurt for them. I cannot help but cry even as I sit here to type. If you want to read about his full story you can do that here:

I think about their medical expenses with him being in the hospital for the next many months and so many surgeries. I think about the pain he must be in and the frustration he must feel as he cant hardly move. And his wife, having to sit by and watch him hurt, watch him struggle.

They are so strong and will surely recover from this, will be even stronger for it. I don't honestly know how people live without the gospel. How they get through the inevitable sadnesses of life. I lean so much on Christ, so much on his atonement, and my life is comparably cake.

So as silly as it is to blog about something so serious, I thought it was really one of the few things I could do to help. We are sending him a care package with what we can as well. If you are interested in sending him anything his address is on the website above.

His story reminded me of this...

We are thinking of you Dane and Rachel. We are praying for you. Good luck.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Where did the time go?

NEXT MONTH is my 2 year anniversary.

What?! Where did the time go?

I feel like I just graduated... but I have been out of high school for longer than I was in it now. Its not that I feel unready... just that I feel like its crazy I have all of this- that I am in this place that I love so much.

Sometimes I look back and think- how did I get HERE? There is no way I could have pictured this. That I would really get to this point and have this much love in my home every day. That I would have a husband like Chris and he would love me UNCONDITIONALLY. Love me for no reason. Love me when I swell up to 3 times my normal size after having a baby. Love me when I am struggling, love me when i'm sad, love me not even in spite of, but BECAUSE I am a little crazy.

My theory? Time flies when you are having fun. My pregnancy felt like it lasted a decade (not fun) but Lorelai was 4 months old in what felt like a day (fun).

Last night Lorelai went to bed around 930. Even though Chris and I should have gone to sleep immediately to try to soak up that extra hour, we couldn't. We got in bed and talked and laughed in the dark for an hour. Like pee your pants, bust a gut laughing. And then subsequently had the worst night's sleep of our lives. Little bot bot woke up every 45 minutes for 8 hours. But its all good. It was worth it.

I still see myself as this girl I used to be- awkward and nervous and riddled with baggage. I still sit in amazement that Chris picked me. Is that cheesy? Sure. Do I mean it? Absolutely. I just really cant believe where life has taken me. And its not like everyday I wake up with "skittles coming out of my arse" (haha just for you Betina) But I really do like where I am at. I love being at home with my baby girl and making dinner for my husband. This very simple life is really all I have ever wanted. What now?

I told Chris that in high school I toured the church history sites and decided I wanted a ranch in Jackson County, Missouri. He laughed and told me I could have a flat in New York instead. Or in London. Or in Sydney. So what now? I have no idea... but thats the fun part.


Sunday, September 12, 2010

Sunday Soup

I dont know why but when fall hits all I want is soup. This time I decided I wanted a coconut curry soup but couldnt use a recipe since I couldnt buy anything we didnt have. So I just made up a recipe. I dont know exact measurements of anything but basically its:

3 chicken breast cooked in olive oil, korma spice, cumin, garham masala, yellow curry powder and, after the chicken is cooked and shredded into chunks, coconut milk.

Rice cooked with chili powder and fresh black pepper.

Baby carrots chopped and cooked in chicken stock. Add grated zucchini a minute before you are going to serve, setting aside a small portion for garnish.

Combine all and enjoy. Fresh and yum. I think Sunday soup may become a tradition.

Saturday, September 11, 2010


Apparently food is amazing. And maybe even scary.

After the original shock- she decided to gobble up those sweet potatoes... yum yum.



Soccer or football? Well it depends on where your from. But I get tired of trying to say football so my husband knows what i am talking about and soccer so anyone else knows what I am talking about. So forevermore it is socball. That way no one knows what i'm talking about.

Chris is playing in an intramural league with his cousin Dave. His game was at 915pm last friday but me and lolli were too excited and came despite the late start time. It may not have been victorious this first game but it was.... attractive. :) I told chris it made me feel like I could see him in high school... you know when you go to your boyfriend's games. Needless to say I like a little competitive edge in a man. Athleticism is beauty.

Not that you can tell since the lighting was HORRIBLE and the pictures arent great...

Chris posing for the camera pre-game. We got him cleats like 45 minutes before his game.

Cousin dave doing the disco/calling for the ball. His football gear was very chic- we were jealous.

Thats chris hunched over the ball about to take a shot. Sports were invented to make girls like boys. Just a theory.